It’s been a while since I posted something here, and even longer since I made any music. I’ve been thinking about my lack of music making quite a lot in the past few weeks, and I think I’ve realized what’s wrong…
I’m unable to make the music I want to make because I don’t know what kind of music I want to make. I also have no idea how to find out what it is I want to make. I get plenty of ideas, but it’s nothing that’ll last for more than one song, and that just feels pointless to make. To me, music making is about putting your own energy and feeling into the music, but somehow I’m unable to feel the energy I used to.
Waiting for the energy to come and inspiration to strike is also a bad move, so essentially I’m stuck in an endless loop that doesn’t make any music. I want to change it, but I can’t figure out how. Of course, I could just sit and mess around with a sound to see where it leads, but I’ve always been quite set in my way to start making a track – and fighting that routine is hard.
Another part of the problem is that I don’t feel like making dark ambient, maybe not even ambient(!), anymore. But what to do if not that? Maybe I’m too stuck thinking about genres? I should just say “fuck it” and get started somewhere, somehow, sometime.
I’ll try to fight the lack of energy, and I’ll see you when I see you.